Trusting my Instinct

“I have been and still am a seeker, but I have ceased to question stars and books; I have begun to listen to the teaching my blood whispers to me.”
― Hermann Hesse

I have a whole lot to catch up on here, but for now this will be short and not too sweet.

I have an appointment to see a new oncologist that is quite a distance away next week . I had hoped to get my treatment done locally, but the cancer center near me has kept me waiting for so long and the have totally dropped the ball on my care. I have seen the oncologist ONCE since I first visited the center, and am usually scheduled with a PA. They have yet to stage my cancer and even after a pet scan, which showed a nodule on my left lung, they have not come up with a solid treatment plan. So many wasted appointments without answers and my patience with them is gone. They also offer zero financial assistance, and I cannot put myself in the position to go through a medical bankruptcy again.

I no longer have any faith in this facility, and it is time to move on. I have given them more than enough time to take my health seriously. They have never offered me any hope, just excuses as to why this is taking so very long. And bill statements. Plenty of those.

I was diagnosed over a year ago, yet I am still waiting. for answers. It’s not like I am dealing with a minor concern, cancer has invaded my lymph system and I have been very tired and run down since my last surgeries in June. My blood work is wonky; I’m anemic and my white blood cell count is off the charts.

I just want answers and a plan. Covid has broken a healthcare system that was already in shambles and I’m fighting like hell to not let it break me down with it.

If you can help in any way, I have left a donation link below. We are totally maxed out. I live in a very rural area, so there is no such thing as ride share or any of the programs that most larger cities offer. We’re driving a very old vehicle that has had multiple breakdowns with no funds left for repairs. Unfortunately it runs on premium gas. (big ouch).
I know times are hard across the board for many people but just knowing others care means so much, so good thoughts and positive energy are always appreciated as well. I hope to be well enough in the future to pay it forward because none of us are guaranteed good health and our lives can change so very drastically in the blink of an eye..

Donation Link